Monday, November 19, 2007

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

mamaback

this particular person has been calling me, out of the blue, just to 'catch up'. well..... if we were tight in the first place, i would not have minded if he disappeared and appeared as and when he wants, like some ppl. however, this particular person is full of empty words (a.k.a: full o bull la). i just cannot stand people who are full of promises but does nothing about it. it reminds me so much of the promises my father has given me and in the end, disappoint me. many times. so yeah, pet peeve: people full of empty words (all talk, no action). haven't they heard that actions speak louder than words?

well.... besides being full of nothing-ness, this person gave me a very sarcastic reply (i found it pathetic and funny tho. it just was) when i wished him happy birthday. *shrugs* some people. just coz he always tried to call me (after suddenly disappearing on me for a long time) to no avail. well, i was busy taking care of monkeys and studying. i have my priorities ya know.

so, after a few months of peace, he started calling me again, just to ask some questions. i didn't wanna talk about what he wanted to ask, so i referred him to people who would've known better. yes, that's my part of palying the cards right. u want to ask the specifics, i help u get to the specific answers la.

then, he started calling for nothing. of course, i was always doing something (fasting month mah.... either breaking fast or performing terawih- loved it!). so really, wrong timing on his part. i've other more important things to do. i've done enough bad things so far and i need to catch up on doing the good things to score points with God. heh! then, he got angry coz i never called him back. *huh?* why is that my problem?

like most of my friends know, i'll make it a point to message them when we haven't seen each other for a long time. in fact, i'll regularly exchange messages with friends as a form of saying 'hi, how u doing?', ya know what i mean? well..... if u suddenly disappear and don't reply to my messages and don't have a good excuse for it (being in a coma is the ONLY excuse i'll accept), u're off my list of friends. sorry, no hard feelings. if i don't matter, then u don't too.

what i don't understand is....... why keep calling me lately? just to catch up? that's really fishy ya know. i'm not the only one who thinks so.

oh well.... if u can understand english well enough, you'll follow my instructions on how to get to me. send me a message, not call me. i don't have free incoming calls. and wasting my free minutes just to catch up with an acquaintace is of no importance to me. if you're 'hurt' that i don't pick up calls, then let me tell you that you're choosing to be hurt. i already said to message me. so just message la. so stubborn.

anyhoos! dad's not good. his pain is getting worse. physiotherapy did him bad. to see dad broken like this is really disheartening. like we all know, our dads (for those who look up to their dads) are the strongest people we know (or one of the strongest). i see how frustruated and helpless he feels. its an ego bashing experience for him as well. he wouldn't want to use the cane in public because he doesn't want people to think that he's handicapped. (this explains my super huge ego. mum's like that too. its inherited.) he wouldn't even let us support him during the painful attacks! *slaps forehead* i'm just praying very hard that he'll go through this a-okay. i know he'll need a risky surgery in order for him to get better.

in all honesty, i don't really trust the TCM in this area. if its just pinched nerves, then i'm all for TCM. but this concerns the bone, in fact, the spine. if it were me, i wouldn't want anyone pulling my spine just to get that one out-of-place vertebra back in place. i dunno.... what do you think?

allright! that's all for now. such a long and windy post after some time not posting huh?

ps: leeza! how u doing! i know u're swamped with work. that much i know very well. heheh! miss you too! *hugs*

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